pencil point...

2001-10-21T21:38:00.000-07:00

i drank an invisibility potion last night... which was stupid. actualli, i just haven't blogged since last week. why? to be honest...i don't know? dammit, i dont like how blogger makes me blog with html. it takes too damn long, and even though i'm quite fluent with html, i don't like blogging with it. >.<; too complicated.

Ha, i actualli did something this weekend. I finished my chem lab yesterday and finished reading Uncle Tom's Cabin (in its entirety) yesterday, also. Then, i got cocky and lazed around a bit, so now it's near 9:30 and i still have stats and reading that chem chapter for hw... -_-; i couldn't so anything saturday--to busy driving my sisters everywhere. First, it was sMae, needing a ride to PSATs. Then, it was jen and malou needing to be taken to saturday school. then i went home and finished laundry and did some ironing. an hour and fifteen later, i'm driving back to pick jen and malou up. i take them home, and go back to lchs to pick sMae up. then, i go out to buy lunch. all in all, i was out driving half of all yesterday. oh, fun...

Erm, so I'm not really in a crappy mood. This week was actualli "okay". English is so much fun, what with the guyz all just lazing about, crapping about stuff or just imitating other english teachers. aaron did a pretty good impression of mr. burner. :D and mike asked around for hand lotion. again. o.o; Is it weird for guyz to be asking for hand lotion?--especialli when they are actualli planning to use it? hmm. e-mail me comments. but poor mike's been asking me so many times, i think i'll just give him a bottle. i have so many lying around the house anyway...it'd make a nice christmas present. ^_^ oh, and gov--my god, that's such an interesting class. mrs. L is great. and so are the peeps in it. i had the pleasure of listening to edwin and...was it tommy? --re-enact scenes from the Phantom Menace -along with all sound effects and bgr music- while at the same time coloring in a poster about liberals vs. conservatives.

stats wasn't so bad, either. Dr. M gave us each chocolate--said she thought we'd like it if we celebrated halloween early. i wasn't in my seat when she started handing it out, so she put one bar on my desk and when she came to me, she gave me another one. Two bars, hoorei! but then, justin stole it. he swapped with meghan, who ended up eating mine, anyway. so, no choco for me :(. but, it was interesting anyway. chem is chem, and will always be like what it is. bla bla...

went to choir today, so fun! ^^ randi says that we'll start doing christmas songs soon, which was the highlight of the day, for moi. christmas is my favorite, yes it is! :D give me lotsa presents!

ugh...so, i'm off to do stats and the rest of chem now. crap. and i wanted to sleep early, too. damn html...

2001-10-13T17:56:00.000-07:00

When you just gotta know... Took SATs this morning. It didn't turn out as bad as i thought. The verbal part was relatively easy, but the math was the devil. I skipped here and there, not even sure if i was going anywhere, or even if i was getting any right at that matter... u_u;

And then, of course, when i get home, my mom's just totalli pissed off. she's freakin' mad that i didn't tell her that i had SATs today--yelled via phone at me half the time. now, why would she need to know, anyway? it's not like she just had to prepare something or do something before I went off to take it. what's her problem, anyway? she's been b*tchy all week, and i've tolerated it the past few days; don't know what's eating her.. o.o?

geez, now that we're on the subject, she went on another "throw away" fit last night. My mom's a clean freak kinda person...everything must always be in order and disinfected and all that other nice stuff. well, she walks into the library and nearly pops a vein. half a second later, she's opening all drawers, screaming, and throwing all papers and other stuff around her. when she got my desk, i ordered her not to touch my stuff. my voice must have bore an edge to it, cuz she didn't, and glared at me instead. Forced me to swear that i would clean it up today. and i did. sort of. it's hard to keep a house clean with so many people roaming around it--i guess she doesn't understand that, and probably never will. :/

[yawns] so...i didn't catch up on sleep as i thought i would be able to. SATs started around 8 am, so i woke up around six-ish. i really do need to sleep. i'm dead tired. [yawn again] but, as usual, i have chem, gov, stats, and who knows what to do. ugh.

i'm going to sleep. till later -_-zzzz....

2001-10-11T19:15:00.000-07:00

Spiffy. Ever heard of that term before? Kimi's favorite word. Makes me wonder if anyone's bought spiffy.com, yet. Or if it even exists.

So, in actuality, my life is only 3/4 screwed. I never did get to writing that college apps essay for english. I took one that i wrote last year and copied it. Lucki enough for me, the teacher wasn't there today. We has a sub. But, as for Chem...well, let's say that I'm not doing very well in it at the moment. Yesterday, i was so bummed out that i couldn't even write. I was snappy all day. Why? I got a Progress Report. I'm presently earning 71% in my ap chem class. And it bites. I mean it really, really bites. Moments like these, I like to come home with a fake smile, lock myself in my room, and do homework until I'm so depressed that I cry. And then I'd take a shower and cry there, too. And then I'd do more homework, get depressed again, and cry myself to sleep. So, yeah, i'm a crybaby when I'm depressed. So sue me.

Strange this is that...i couldn't cry. I felt beyond crying. I was just so, so...so down there that i couldn't do it. And that scared me. It really did--it scared the shit out of me. I went to bridges as usual. Got mad at Matt. Then went home around late 6-ish, and spend the rest of the evening doing the stats project and other stuff. It was past midnite when i went to bed. I just kind of layed there, staring up at the ceiling--well, you know the phrase "money burning a hole in your pocket"? well, that progress report was burning a hole in my backpack. I didn't know what to do. I still don't know what to do...

I went online yesterday: Tzvi was on ^_^ we talked for awhile, but i guess he could tell that something was bothering me, even if we were only IMing each other. I love it when people can predict me like that--it makes me feel loved. [snugs] he realli tried to cheer me up. ;D he's a wonderful friend. and when i signed off about an hour later, i realli did feel a tad better. [loved]

Chahine accepted to do my recommendation! [ laughter ] I was quite lucki; not many people does she write one for, and mostly when people ask, she refuses. She looked so happi about it, too, when i asked her...she totalli makes my day ^_^ Her and Mrs. L. History teachers are so cool, and funni in their own strange little way.

So, we have pep assembly tomorrow. it's too soon, i tell ya. Our last one was just 2 weeks ago! But, i suppose it wasn't originally supposed to happen that way. The week of September 11 was supposed to be the date of our first pep ralli. Of course, with what happened, there was no way that we could. So we postponed it until next Friday. Of course, that following Friday, Bush declared a national day of mourning, so it was postponed once again. So we had it three weeks after the day it was supposed to take place. And then with homecoming around the corner...yeah.

ugh. well, i'm off to study for a vocab test, work on apps, and go to sleep...just gotta make up for the brain cells i lost all this week... -_-;

Damn. Maybe that's why I'm getting dumber...

2001-10-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

..Well, shit. My first blogger entry. Let's everyone celebrate. [sprinkles in air . cows flying]

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Well, don't mind the cows. They fly around here often every once in a while or so. Yeah. So, I'm screwed. It's almost 10 here, and I shoud be asleep, dammit! But, of course, I'm not. Notes need to be taken for Chapters 4-5 for Gov, and that "Special Problem" Dr. M's been talking about for Stats...yeah...that's due Thursday, and I haven't even started. Maybe she'll forget? What a possiblity, hrm...

So, yeah, I'm screwed either way. I wish i could just screw all this and go to sleep, but I knoe I can't cuz bridges is tomorrow, from 4 to 6 PM -(why did Matt have to assign it that time of day??)- and I won't be able to get anything done after that. And, dammit, i still need to finish my college apps and essays and...crap. [sigh]

Yeah, so maybe i'll have a little talk with Matt. I expect he'll blackmail me with the "if you don't, then you won't be LCE leader" thing --if he does, he'll have to face my wrath...and my unusually large wooden utensils. [evil grin]

So, yeah...that's basically my life in a nutshell--or at least, for tonight. I'm not sure what I'll be tomorrow. Maybe I'll be even more screwed than I am already, even though I don't need to be any more screwed than I already am!! -_-; Stupid school. Stupid APs. Stupid me.

Yea, and I have a Chem thing tomorrow. Didn't do the homework. Whoopee. Maybe if I try real hard, i can maybe get to bed before two in the morning, this time...wish me luck?